by Kali
It has been a little over 13 months and I think I miss my mom more and more each day. It was Feburay 10, 2010 when we found out that my mom had a brain tumor. Her only symptom was the faint smell of gas, this is untill we found out what the other symptons included memory loss and mood swings. So, we did what we thought we should, follow what the doctor orderd. We proceeded with the craneotomy where we discovered that she a glioblastoma grade 4, an in-opererable brain tumor. From that day forward our lives were changed.
Our roles had reversed, she now needed us to be her caregiver, a task that my sisters and I will never regret. My mother was an independent women who lived life to the fullest. Her grandchildren were the lights of her life and she would give anyhting up for them. On July 6, 2010 we found out that the cancer has spread to her spinal cord and was settling on her pelvis making it hard for her to move. The question came, do we continue treatments, or discontinue and make her comfortable? We came together as a family and chose to make her as comfortable as possible.
The following month was the hardest as she began to slip away from us. She finally ended her journey with brain cancer on August 5, 2010, 6 months after her diagnosis. I struggle to find the answers to the why questions on a daily basis but I must believe that God had greater plans for her. My children still ask about her a couple of times a week or talk about her and sometimes it feels good to hear them say "Nana" but other times I want to break down and cry. Brain cancer took my mom away but from that, I have found many other strong people, some who are survivors and some that have similar stories to mine. In my quest to find as much information as I could about my moms cancer, NBTS has given me the oppurtunity to support brain tumor awareness. I now have a beautiful and courageous angel checking in on me from time to time and I am greatful that she can walk, talk, and be happy once again.
